scarring...

So I had a realization, that i'm sure people would be like "ofcourse". But i think when people are deeply emotionally hurt, they tend to have an unconcious fear of the same event occurring. Basically the response i had from two separate friends really surprised me.

At first, i thought they were being illogical (my fortay(sp?) mind you :) and when i thought back to what has happened to them, their actions only made sense. What even shook me more was the fact they were more deeply hurt considering what happened to them years ago.

In other news....People are deleting me from their friendster page! :) i think it might have been something i said. :) Honestly, i don't know, but to be deleted nonetheless still allows me to realize that people still think of me :) Maybe not as positively as i would like, but its still a start. I'm thinking it must be do to the video of me jumping on silent fart's bed. I knew i should have chose better music, and not gone with what was the first thing on silent fart's play list.


RD : )